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Re: relationships |
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Lindsay |
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Apr 29, 08 - 1:01 PM |
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nelsonlindsay1@hotmail.com |
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Hi
I had my Ls diagnosed 8yrs ago now, and at first i had a really rough time. I have been on a lot of different ointments and creams, but i have found things that work for me now, but there are times like at the moment when i do go through some really bad flares. Last year i started passing blood when i urinated, and i didnt know if it was anything to do with the Ls, so i asked for advise on this forum and fabia told me to get it checked out, which i did, and as it turned out it is the LS that has caused the Hematuria, it has caused scarring at the urethra and this is causing the bladder to get inflamed and so every now and then i have a really bad bout and there isnt much i can do about it but ride it out so they say anyway. These last few weeks has been terrible for me, i have went into a very bad depression, so bad that my doctor has prescribed anti-depressants, i am not to sure about that, but the worst thing is that i have the horrible feeling that my husband is going to get fed up with me and leave, he has been supportive all the way through this,and has never given me any doubts that he loves me, but i just cant convinse myself that he is ok about this, i think that i am trying to prepare myself for what i think is going to happen. We have been married 21yrs, and have 2 grown up boys, they are the most important things in my life, and i think that i have let this condition finally get the better of me, i have got tiered fighting all the bad thoughts to the back of my mind, i know that its me pushing him away, and i know that i am trying to protect him, but i am only hurting myself in doing this. Do you think that we put up barriers to protect us from what we think will happen anyway?
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